Freaking tired now. But considering the past two days, though not productful academically, but it seems quite ok, mentally.

Viet gang gathering cum post anniversary on wednesday was simply great. Meet jer & pj at cck mrt. Then talk all the way to little india.....meet wx. Its like so long didnt see. hahhah. jer grew taller(according to wx, me too hahah). pj got this pair of coloured contact, turing her eyes into cats eye.(I did dug it out and encrust it with diamonds if its a gem hahahh). Inintially wanted to have dim sum buffet at a hotel, located in little india . (based on jer -.-lll, but we found out that it was in dunno ha dunno what road).so change of plans. Indian buffet at , supposedly parven's dad's restaurant. hahahh. Not bad, it was my first time or rather second eating indian food. Nun and the curry veggie & that prawn cracker tasting thingy was good:), quite cheap also hahahh......

Next stop, took a sneak preview of that new mall in orchard, forget what it was le. Then movie- Aliens VS Monster , as jer dun wannna watch that hell show again . Not bad quite cute de. Then taka, went kinokuniya, read book for 2hr if I not wrong, while jer & pj was drowned in magazines hahhah.

Lunch at cineleisure at koufu, after that catch up. After that went Far east, shop abit. But thanks to me, everryone had to leave early. hahahh. But thanks for the company :)

Oya, Happy belated anniversary :) to Viet gang

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Today, woke up at 6a.m -.-lll . Went all the way down to aljunied with chih kiat & lester for Asian Water Symposium 2009 at Dunman High. The school is super china one, bonsai everywhere. The parade square has at least $70 000 worth of plants lor. the bonsai all so freaking old de.

Alot of speakers, talk on water,mismanagement,pollution etc. Thailand speaker said that for every one tonne of rice , required 3000 cubic meter of water -,-. He keep saying that it was wrong of the govt to grow rice, cause waste water. Then theres talk on water footprint. :) Not bad la quite interesting one.

Then theres tonnes of food. morning tea, lunch, afternoon tea, all buffet one.....

This is what I learnt. More needs to be done, to allow people to better understand the water footprint behind every process of life. We should go back to basic and live harmoniously with nature :).
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K I am done. Really need to start mugging tmr le. Did absolutely nothing these two days -.-lll. Think I will see my downfall soon. haizzzz

It should be end of holiday liaoz. I think hor, schools should like give us 2.5 week of holiday instead than exam & then return us a carefree 1.5 week holiday lor!!!!This will be better.

oya didnt make it in time for 09s02 and 4E3 gthering. so sad.

拿起和放下- 我真的还不会..........
是时候学了

Cross the border

customs

sotong

0.2 eaten chicken

secret recipe

went malaysia on Tuesday. It was like feaking easy & fun la hahhah.

1st time I am stepping onto malaysia soil without the aid of a guide or spending so much" 怨望钱" hahah. It is really as easy as what jeremy had describe earlier. Take 160, go through s'pore customs, then go down take bus(any will do 160 or 170) then arrive at malaysia & OTOT. Get the white cards filled (horribily troublesome, as usual ,my mom & brother also dunno how to fill in & i ended up filling three cards). After getting that purple stamp, you are done, just follow the crowd, & turn here & there u will get to City Square) so easy hahahh.

Lunch at SDS, chicken cutlet, lemon tea & calamari rings (duuno how to spell), so cheap!!!Then shop, mom bough a top, I bought nothing at all except two bar of sweets that was mistaken as chewing gum at the customs -.-lll . Lucky I didn't buy VCDs or else I wonder where I would be now. Oya brought kueh lapis & lots of bread. Secret Recipe there wasn't that fantastic as what I had thought of, so didn't get any cakes.

Saw this shirt at Padini, so freaking nice and formal. But dunno why I just didn't buy it & I am regretting now......

Yup, back to the Singapore customs. First time I get stopped for checking. I was like telling that guard, ayo is sweet la. Then he was like, relax, I haven say anything dun worry. He took out the stuff so gently & ask sucrose right? I was like ya. Then again he gently put it back & give that plastic bag to me with two hands & say enjoy your day ,wow, so surprising la!

Anyway, it has been quite a fruitful trip, at least I would not get scam off my money again liaozzz.

休息是为了走更长远的路

复杂，五味杂成。。。。可能最能形容此时的我。一大堆的事，堆积如山的，压得我很累了。有点想逃避的感觉，不知我还能撑多久。咳。。。。。。。。 早知今日，我又何必当初呢？你真笨!不只害了自己还害了别人，真是不知羞耻。木已成舟，有点还魂乏术的感觉。

只好走一步算一步了。只希望真的是船到桥头，自然直。
Chih Kiat erm, dunno what to say, I think I am quite bad to drag you into this & definately to be blame lar, can only say sorry . Hope that u get well soon :)

Quite annoyed now.
今非昔比，月会圆，人会变。既然你一口断定我是这样也罢。先别说你的唁函举止了，将心比心 - 你以缺了这一点。对，虽说得人恩德，千年记，但人有自己选择的权利，每个人都有自己的底线，这一点使你永远无法理解或改变的！世间万物的存在，后面都有他自己的原因，不许你来判断或否决。善恶因果终究会有报，是福不是祸是祸躲不过。

k, what a week. Finally, what a werid start for holidays. Preparing for CSE that I know I will fail.Did nothing except CSE. But, nevermind as least I know I have tried my best.

There's tonnes of homework and revision waiting to be done haizz.

Holiday list:
MYE revision
PW- data collect, interview, letter etc.....
Bio, chem,maths make up
CIP
Viet gang meet :)
E3 meet
S02 meet, maybe cannot make it haizz
malaysia
sleep
TV

I seriously need to take some decent one person photo of myself. I don't have any !!!

Quite surprise today, not that u are able to find it, but u actually come hunting for it......

既来知，则安知。

I am seriously sicked now, down with horrible headache.I have totally spent the whole day sleeping, now I am still down with slight headache. I think I am seriously behind time. I have yet to start CSE study. Haizzzz how huh. I am really afraid that I wont even make it past mid year now.

GP on friday was a sheer disaster. I had chosen the dumbest & most fatal question of all. Is change nessarily for better. Haizzz nevermind. I can only hope to pass now.

& Bio & Chem I can't imagine.

We see how. I am really reconsidering my options & my cards. If I really can't cope, I will just change my paths ba.

BTW I got MINDEF's letter le. The letter that I dreaded. hiazzz......

Life's bad, k, I go sleep liaozzz

Tmr I hope to go food fair, hope that my stupid headache will subside. So that I can take photos.

自做蘖不可活

Quite irritated today. Ya, I know it was our fault that we did not inform you beforhand, but what u did is really first of its kind. Threatening- if you don't go, I will leave.

GP on friday, haizz....

There's a coin that I like, I wanna buy it !!!!hahah , but it will never be in GSS, so think my poor wallet have to take the cost hahah. But I wonder if it is worth it, consider the curent metal pricing haizzzz.

不费吹挥之力，你达成了想要的。。。。。。
得饶人处，且饶人
黑白，是非，对错，公道，自在人心

If it is as simple as a word sorry...

k, I seemed quite free now i dun really know what homework I am left with other than maths & bio & tonnes of revision.

nvm, so bored now, I dun feel like in the mood to mug.... how huh?

得与矢只是一线之差

Haizz I feeling sort of the nostalgic now very funny emotion. dunno whether to be happy a not. I am definately glad that June holidays are coming real soon, but find this holiday to be pretty werid I think.There's MYE at last day & first wed & when school starts next semester there will be MYE. It's like a thorn in my eye. But nontheless I am going to take a break this time round. Afterall quite alot of change in plan for the holidays occured.

ACID camp - cancelled due to H1N1, meaning I am free for the weekend.
Teaching- thanks to what that "professional" teacher did, it is like hanging in mid air going no where.
Malaysia- we see how I thought of going after MYE since there is a long 5 day holiday after that.
Viet meet up - jeremy , ok week 2 perhaps a wednesday! & lets go GSS together ahhah
PW- dunno yet, it's like everything is upside down.
MYE- better do well or else.......

chinese oral is like so freaking la.Dunno who on earth came up with that stupid idea of having oral in front of your classmates. So what la my hands were like shaking that day & if you guys notice, the first question was seriously badly answered!! I dun even know why content was worth 1- la . I doubt I shld be getting this mark lor.Anyway I just crapped my way through & I make it hahah.

Bio test, sheer disaster, failed nevermind. I really dont know what happened I tried my best le, maybe or I didn't. haizzz

Chem test thats on the way back. I did hope that it can be DHL- deliver halfway lost. Hope that AW dun srcutinise me can liao.

Maths is so-so , quite disappointing I would say. GP - haizz so what if.

Next week is just busy, thats all I can say.
GP MYE on fridaay haizz.
oral continuation- freaking scary
CSE test
gtg do HW le.

人不为己,真的要天铸地灭吗?
路摇知马力日旧见人心

Seriously what on earth is wrong with you ! Why are you making all those stupid careless and brainless mistakes? Why are you blacking out, as though you are a lamp destined to be controlled by a switch, or a candle's glow which is affected by the strength of the wind.Why are you not performing like what you have been doing? Seriously wake up soon, before the road ends, and the doors shut.

Take it as a stepping stone? Is it really possible? Or is it something just to comfort your disstress soul? Let it be I did rather I lost my soul now and pass on . ( I shld nt be usin this word but ya pass on, I think it is a good word)

YOU NEED TO WAKE UP & BUCK UP!!!!!!

EFFORT - perhaps I am lacking this crucial element.

愿得三宝加持

命运弄人

tiring week 8

k, I am seriously going to complain today. The tests this week are freaking unfriendly ok!!!

Let's start with Bio test.K, this time round the bio test seems more like人做的.The MCQ, I have no gaurentee on how much I will get. But something I know for sure is that open ended I am either doomed to fail, or just to pass. It is like we are short changed in terms of the time & marks allocated for open ended question.A question that deserved at least 6 marks was only given 3 mark. That's not really what I want to say, cause it is normal for teachers to do that, in order to maximise the content they are testing. But the time it is seriously short leh!Anyway I still hope that the overall won't be just a pass. I did be greedy now. Or else when can I ?

Chemistry was a sheer disater. Yes, it is undeniable that I did some last minute study like two days before hand. But seriously before I did the exam I was like, yeah I more or less know the concepts. But what happened?I recieved the paper everything was like deleated? Two whole pages was empty(pls bear in mind it is excluding that stupid bonus question, which was also left blank!)Nevermind I think I am really prepared to fail & guarentee that's what I can say. haizzz

Maths, well generally if I don't make any stupid mistakes there's nothing much to regret le. Cause, other than the d2y/dx2 I didnt manage to complete in time. The rest should be alright la. cause the rest all is I really dun no one so yeah!

K, I am too sick now. Just heard that eco got some funny activicity that I must attend to . haizzzzz. There goes my holiday.....

Let's see what is in for holiday this time round.
- china studies MYE -.-lll
- Bio tutorial
- ACID camp
-Viet gang aniversary
- School teaching :) hahhah it did be fun I hink , maybe I might end up confusing students hahah
- Eco thingy
- I wanna try visit malaysia by bus!!!!
-Study MYE

各花入各眼.
生死有命,富贵在天

k, long weekend. I literatelly spent the whole holiday resting. NOw pay the price none of my homework is done. & revision is in bits & pieces nothing solid is done -.-lll

NVM le, next week I simply need some best of luck. Bio, Chem, Maths. I dunno what to say laugh hahhah or emo cry ? haizzz. life still goes on ...

Haizz tonite need to do stupid english GP le.......


"If there was another way I would not be here today. I did be back where I belong,somewhere in my heart. I should be the first to know where the road I take & go......" adapted from lyrics beauty world
挫折感

Week 7 just flew by.....like this without me accomplishing anything other than PI, which drained me out completely by thursday. Causing me to finish my GP test in the most pathetic state ever. I was struggling to keep my eyes open. But guessed that PI has suck whatever's left in me. I did not know what I nonsence I have written. It was only when I have reached the last half another than did I realise that I have craped out everything & 90% of them was wrong!!!!NVM, what's done is done, just be prepared to f...

NAFA after GP test was disaster. Failed shutter run, broad jump, & pull up. Need to break the egg. Or else 3 mths of hell will be there for me.

Went to do GPP today. Seriously, although I like the topic I am doing but I doubt the EOM will be a good one.Cause there is basically no articles on it !!!!!Anyway I dunno how but ya we will just make it ba .......

Anyway next week is common test. Bio, maths & chem come crashing in all at one go...... Lets see how I drown, elegantly or horrifying. hahahha

k, got to go edit the GPP le

佛历2553年
愿,佛光普照,佛日增辉
离苦得乐,步步高升

得饶人处怯饶人

宰相肚里能乘船
饮水思源
愿得三宝加持,愿离苦得乐

"Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned. "

"No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path."

Eternal Shakyamuni Buddha

Today PE was like first time so slck, playing hunter & polar bear with christine, jasper, julian, gabriel, ee hong, hui jie. It was like so slow. But I get a conclusion I am seriously a poor liar! Anyway I will brush up on that.

PW- hahah Hi Mr Ching, if you really see this then I can say 2 things. Congrats you found it hahhah( actually its quite easy cause before that I challenged Julian & he actually found it via my friends link, so let me guess, u get here by my friends link or by 09S02 class blog link？) & ya u think I scolded u thats all. & sorry for retorting you today. No hard feelings.( I hope ) By the way must tag ok, u say will tag one huh hahhah !!But dun spam my tag box hahahh

Anyway, it is undeniable that you are more than suitable as a PW teacher. hahahh.

人算不如天算
直至死地而又后生，真的吗？还是还魂乏术了？

Went to MINDS today for ACID camp 09 orientation, not really a waste of time. I learnt something.- Don't grumble so much, yes you are stress but compare yourself to others maybe you did count yourself lucky le. Although they may be slower, they really led a life. A carefree one. Yes they can be quite diffcult to deal with at times, I don't deny that, but they are simply in their world, away from this cruel factual place we are in.

Heaven's fair afterall, you are born in a safe comfort place, thus you have to pay a price for it. The stress & the high standard of living.

But after todays sort of orientation, I find that perhaps its right for me to sign up for the camp :) The volunteers (from NUS & NTU) are really helpful. & thanks to help from Ying Qin & gang , if not I would have screwed today.

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Anyway I really want my holidays. I need a break! Ronald's right , quick raise the flu alert to red, & I can be at home. I did like to be a hermit crab for once, have a shell to shield myself from this utterly fast paced , cruelly tunned society I am in!

k, need to go rush PI le, tmr will be another day out. But I am glad, tomorrow's trip is worth making.

"If there's a chance, all I want is the meaning to my whole life everyday." Beauty World - Suddenly

望尘莫及,迷失的高羊.

Eco board

Bio experiment

MPR5 if I am not wrong, first time inside, pretty big thats all i can say

Hazel sleeping during PW last week hahah

Bio prac this week

Bio tutorial

Eco bazzar hahhah selling orchids.

Done, bascially other than the cantoment trip not up this was what I had been doing.

ok! It is offically stupid to feel stress now, especially when it is labour day holiday & I am like packed with homework??? I actually wanted to go make new spects one but by the looks of it haizzz.& tmr till gt dunno what camp training to attend to, luckily I only signed up for one day only or else I can really forgo about making a one day trip cross the boarder to get some cheap secret recipe. hehheh Next week's vesak, & mother's day will be spent on mugging for everyone, thats what I predicted. Cause based on latest news, all three H2 subjects that S02 has undertake is going to hold their deparmental test(sounds so classy isn't it the same as common tests?) on the same week. So bascially maths, chemistry and biology is going to rush in at one go like tusnami.

Actually Ronald I dont mind them having the alert raised to red now, school will close & stuff. but yeah may be you r right, test will still be here they wont go.........

we'll see how later........

无奈

Its quite crazy of me to be here right now at 11.30+++ but ya. As usual homework not done. still gt enzymes untouched. I just wanna go sleep le so tiring. The weather today was freaking hot, making me felt so lathargic & restless. Ended up napping for 2 hours after reaching home. Yeah ! will be meeting jeremy tmr I am so glad that we will be meeting tmr !!!!. He seems quite stressed out. Anyway proteins is driving me crazy!!!!! I dont even understand a sing;e thing although Mr wong had completed the tutorials !!!!!

Enough for today.Tmr still got dreadful PE. haizz life's bad.

If I am here then I suppose every road should be wrong........

光

K, I am very much behind time now, most probably there would either be people who had finished enzyme tutorial & started bio revision & stuff or at least completed their HW lists but I think I will have a long way to go for tonite..... nvm liao la, I have enough le......

I dun really feel like going to school sometimes.It doesnt really seems to be a friendly college although undeniably the teachers are trying to slow down to let us catch up but I am just not having a reason for what I am doing now. I have a dream as a motivation. Is it funny ? But I thought I am not desperate enough perhaps I should just buck up, chat less, blog less, sleep less & I dont really know what to do.........

Last week had been fun but tiring.Eco week, sold 13 pots of orchids, bought mushrooms, went for a seriously meaningful talk & yeah it was first time I find such talks useful& I realise that stupid eco week should have been last week instead then my PI would have been better.Went for NE research, nvm I thought it seems to be more like a photo trip, ate & went home.

I need to piroritise my time, differentiate needs from wants, dos & don't before I see all the carrots flying in instead of the apples I want.

Last week GP test was I dont know what to say,I think I have craped myself throgh, I doubt it will be graded pass. Chinese test was sheer disaster what a bad start. A pass would be something lucky, if not that will be the first chinese test I failed since dunno when... if it is really 好的开始就是成功的一半, I did foresee nothing more than B which is something I dont want!!!!!!

As for PI hahhah, I dont know I am loosing the faith I used to have....... Things doesnt seems to go the way I have wanted.I doubt .....

I find last week quite fruitful but I am still feeling quite vain & down dunno why.Anyway I hope they don't swap wednesday's timetable with friday's.

Pictures we see how next friday

路是人走出来的