Friday, July 31, 2009

I don't know what to say now la.

My dad just found my phone bill which I didnt hide properly. He was like where is the telephone bill for this month huh? Then he started digging the heap of papers on the table & he found it.

Outgoing calls - 181.8 min 27.31
Incoming calls - 401.8 min 60.36

-.-lll Anyway he didnt say much heng..... Just afew words......

But maybe seriously I should cut down on the time I spent talking on phone la. & concentrate more on my school work.Perhaps this explains my MYE grades.

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Today chit chat abit with m.. l.. she was trying to inquire about the class, especially CSE. So I just gave her the points, reflected what the class thinks in the nicest & tactful way & balanced the view point with my own to make it sound complete and nicer. Anyway yup, was rather interesting. Made some comparisons & stuff, tried to be balanced & made her promise not to quote me. Rest assure, nothing bad was sprouted. Anyways she say our class is generally fine, just that we mugged the wrong way she say we 死读书,不是没有读书& teachers generally find us ok to teach. I shall stop here for this.

Summation is irritating.....

谋事在人,成事在天

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Should be doing my WR & transcription now.... But aya.............

I should frequent this page less often.

Today's interview was ultra smooth, although as usual we were lost. Mr Fong , of Tong Heng is really nice :) His egg tarts is so heavenly good la!!! He provided us with all that we need . & even go an extra mile of fetching us to his jurong point branch. So pai seh. but thanks :) We sort of the tooked away quite a portion of his time but, he was really helpful. He even gave us complimentary pastries ^^ . Took photos & learned alot:)

Pictures will be up asap, but most probably will have to wait till national day le. Cause I m like racing against time nowadays.


一种米,养百种人

Saturday, July 25, 2009

I don't know what to say now. I am seriously pretty blurred & confused. It's like this year is so unproductive.

Went to do PW today. My apologies I overslept, cause I wasn't feeling very well. The surveys undone, interview not clinched. Anyway got licked off by that s..... security guard at West mall. Almost got Mayvin's stuff got confiscated. He even tried asking for which school I was from. Lucky I wasn't that insane to tell him, or else I did be blacklisted on monday.

Went do survey, then keep geting rejected. -.- Meet the class for lunch. Then continued with survey tabulating till 3.30pm then shop abit. Sianzzz

Life at JC sux. Thats all I can say. HW & stuff. I feel so unsecure now. Like I am alone. There's this stupid mentaility that kept lingering in my mind- I am not gonna make it, & fail promos. It's dumb I tried erasing it, but I just can't.

I am not working hard enough. & worst is that I am slow & gets tired easily.

勤能补拙 , 但似乎我戏太多了。

Friday, July 24, 2009

Last weekend was rather intersting. Went to watch Harry Potter and the half blood prince. Though the plot was largely altered, but still enjoyed it very much. I like the love potion part. So fun . But Dumbledore's death was really shocking, casued I hold no interest in reading the book, & rather sad. I sort of the enjoyed looking at him, his white 胡须so cute :) . The last scenes is like so so touching, wizards lighting the path for Dumbledore's soul & harry closing his eyes.........

Went Interview at Gin Thye (sembawang). It's awesome la. It's like first time stepping into such an antique status shop, with that old Singapore rustic feel. Although the journey there further proved that I am a bad guide, & causing us to have to cab down to the place, I find that it's quite worthwhile la.

The lady boss or aunty is very friendly & there's lots to eat hahahh. 1st time eat those white & red sweets, so nice la :)Learnt quite alot.Anyway, photos will be uploaded asap.

Tuesday afternoon was spent at Ng Kim lee. Thanks to Miss yeoh :) The interview was rather smooth talked abit to the ama there in teochew & stuffs. My dad was like "eh u should have said your uncle's name, he knows your uncles." I was like , why don't u tell me earlier. But nonetheless, it was more fruitful than expected. & a range of responses was collated, which will definately aid in the PW. - sound so structured.

Homework is rushing in. & PW is like a stumbling block to completing them. Promos is like hell. Holidays, the heaven I want.

世界是公平的.
Haizzz I think sometimes I should just seal my mouth & go back to the ignorant and naive me. Have been using strong words too much as though they are harmless and the word sorry so frequently that as though I am insincere. & probably the worst is that I have started to become alittle arrogant & started mocking at others at times.

It's quite bad of me. I agree. I can be rather mean at times, especially recently. Don't know why. I didn't mean any harm, but as the words sprouts out, the harm is caused. It's like an evil karma I sowed.

我不是有意的.将自己的快乐寄托在他人的痛苦上,是我错了. 对不起...........

口业;万物语意之所生

Friday, July 17, 2009

I dunno how to describe today. Was feeling very irritated today dunno why. Although no one offended me. But ya.

Not feeling very emotionally stable these few days. Especially like now at night. I tend to be sad & groucchy. In the morning, I tend to be better, at least I won't think so much & go alittle emo. Just felt like retreating to a rural area, for a holiday. But I don't have that luxury of time. Guess that this is the last slacky weekend.

Just not feeling very right. I think it's time to fall sick. & my doctor would say , boy you are too stressed. Take 2 days MC.

I just hope that this kind of stupid results don't reoccur. It's very dumb, serious. I don't understand. Someone please enlighten me.

祸根

Thursday, July 16, 2009

I have reap what I sowed.

It's a vicous cycle. I don't really know what to say. I doubt I should use the word regret, other than for maths. Afterall, I tried. Bio especially. Yup maybe I didn't commit 100% of myself into the learning process, but it was still a good one week on bio. But things doesn't always turn out the way you wanted.

GP ,I chose the wrong question, I still scraped a E. I should be contented. But human's aren't.

CSE was a joke. Thats all I can say. Was rather stunned. Anyway, quite a big commotion was stirred. As though there is a cult that's going to happen. But in the end, protesters left peacefully.

The worst, was chinese. It is seriously , I dare say, first time in my life that I failed a compo paper during an exam. -.-llll . & Loo was like" hor yew cheng "throughout today's lesson.

CBD EBD - The worst grades ever since pri . 6.. So what if no U ? Doesn't this looks Union enough? I don't even know wether to laugh or cry.

I can imagine, how bright the path ahead will be. May the merits of triple gems brighten up the glomy path & shine a way for me to leave this awful world.

It's useless to keep telling yourself you can do it, when you can't do it time & again. Try harder for EOY. HAHAHA, with PW & stupid china compo, I doubt I can.


绝望,挫折
茫然,麻目
无助,失色

Monday, July 13, 2009

Haizzz....... Today is really hor. First time in my life I actually got lectured by a teacher over my marks. Haizzzzz..............

First was mrs loo, now is mdm song, who's next? I don't want to know. 糟透了!I keep sighing today, thats all I could.

GP - I don't even know why S is considered pass la.(no offence but this is what I think) Anyway I passed and failed. I failed to pass? I don't know. I am so 乱now. It is like what mrs lim said is coming true........ I don't know. GP can't blame others neither can I blame the paper. It's stupid I chose the wrong one. A terrribly wrong one. Alternatively I can just say that I am stupid, the first two points was not bad, I should have think out of the box. Like what the marker commented, the first two points is relevant but u failed to write more.Anyway ya u "passed".

Maths, haizz I thought I could have a B at least but, it was seriously a disappointing. Got lectured mdm song was like" why huh? U better give me a good explaination ........ I am sososo angry with u etc" & " u did not make justice for yourself " was the worst one...........

Seriously , JC is totally different place. It is either u make it or break it.

Anyway, I just wondered what if I failed biology & CSE also . PTM would be hell for me, if that were to really happen.I just hope that I don't do stupid acts again, it is really embarassing. I still remember that day vividly.

I would say that maths was really due to panic, otherwise b should be within reach , for this time round. But things doesn't always go the way we want.

Maybe I should just turn my head back. Maybe she's right afterall.

The Poly option is still like opened in my mind.I tried shuting that door, but it seems as though it is opening up. I wanna close it.

Dam sianzz now.

Just hope that the rest of the papers is not as bad as today's.

Chinese was euuuu today. That teacher (I shan't comment about it ). I learnt that out of the 10 lines he taught 2 can be used to describe me.十年河东转河西.

金玉其外,败絮其中

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Today, marks the last day of holiday. Tommorrow- offical start of second semester, recieving back papers(awwww thinking of it just makes me shudders!!!!)& start of hellish months.

Went for CIP today, (I think hor it had been better if I were in Interact, easier for me). Project ID . Initially I was rather surprised to see S02 people, cause last week they were not at the trial run. Anyway, saw Joan, an an, xiu hui, grace, cai ling, samantha, and dunno still gt who I forget le.......

Job was road marshal. Guide people into the park thats all, quite simple task. Glad that the T-shirt is white, orange is so so Darwin. heheheh. After that went lunch and walk walk at library, then buy more food & went home. Haizzz, why must tmr come so fast. It's like I dunwan !!!!!!!

Still wondering wether I should go watch Harry Potter next week. I am like so looking forward to it. But if my results is like crap maybe I think I should just forgo it. They should have start screening last week. -.-lll

I think this will be last post before next post liaozz. Unless I really felt so sick after getting back the results tmr. I just hope that I will pass GP & china studies thats all. By the looks of GP, I really scared that I will get retain. I dunwan !I wan to prove her wrong!!!

I need the best of all luck and the moral courage to face the next sunrise.I can imagine.................

五味杂成

Friday, July 10, 2009

See so cute.
resemble someone hahahahh
Anyway went to abeille dor again today . Mr Ching thought I go 鬼混. hahahhah. Wore my own pants to school, I managed to go in leh! Go there, the sales girl was like much better. Maybe because my mum bought more. But ok la. At least their service still not bad.Manage to get back the product that I am used to. Didn't take the front cause I don't dare.See I do free advertisements leh!
They close quite early thats why I left early form PW, or else I did stay later.
A DBS advertisement I got recently. Bank advertisements are getting more innovative. Trying to catch children's eye, so that children will ask their parents to invest.Let me continue Slow & Steady...... Wins the race . Hope so.

Hehe, ronald remeber this, almost 3/5 of the bottle of cheese powder gone. (pizza hut)


Botak Jones- Is terribly good. Ate this on tue. Is so so so fulling ok.


Anyway today's chinese is alittle boring . I looked rather calm today, but was rather moody after I was told, I did badly for chinese compo.I seriously want to perform up to standard in my A levels, but by the looks of it..... haizz 不想也不能在辜负自己了!haizzz
Hmmmm, I dun feel like starting school! Chemistry & CSE I have not touched anything yet!!!!
EOM is confusing me...... I don't know who to listen. The comments contradicts itself!!!
天堂有路你不走,地狱无门你篇要来





Thursday, July 9, 2009

ok, I am back from oral.

我是乱的.I think I am still quite blur from the oral.I just don't know why that examier didn't ask me much important questions. Neither did she ask me what is bad thing about sending students overseas for exchange programme.....

I don't think I said much, but somehow, that female examier seems curious and satisfied.But the male gave me that " couldn't be bothered face".& worst of all I didn't make eye contact leh!!!!!

Anyway, I find it quite wasted. Just hope that the male is not dislike me then can liao.......

I don't know what to do........... What if it is like english? I hope not....

愿得三宝加持

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

今天摆了个大“悟笼”,I thought my oral was today, but it was on 9th hahahah. Lucky I go check or else I did 出洋相.

Anyway I also don't know what to say. Did english for whole day. The green line , movie was alittle too scary for me I think. Killing people this way, what a sin. Anyway, I don't really know what to do now. Don't feel like doing chemistry. Neither do I feel like mugging china studies.

Think I will be going out again on friday. Haizz horrible.....

Just hope that tomorrow will be fine.

愿:明天会更好 :)

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Erm, ok, seriously i don't know what to say for now.In like less than 24hours time I will seriously be sitting for a A level exam. -.-llll ...............................

Went out for whole day today. Did abit of oral with Chih than went eat. I think i am eating too much nowadays. No wonder feel so broke...... hahahha

Anyway, heard that today's oral was a disaster.你任为新加坡人.........?sounds so diffcult la. The question don't lead to anywhere......

Anyway, just hoped that it won't be like that tmr.

愿:明天会更好 :)

Monday, July 6, 2009

Holiday is so long yet I have done nothing for homework -.-llll. Need to start soon. But I just feel like starting only after my chinese oral is done. But but but. haizzzzz.......

Had been going out almost everyday, these days. Today, went to abeille dor today. It is dam ulu la, hide in a concer of Penisular plaza. It's like decades since I last went there. It's still the same. Went there, that sales girl was like -.-lllll. Anyway, my mum started complaining & I did my part. As usual sales person would always liked to seal my mouth cause I always pick those gritty stuffs that they tried to hide. But , hehehhe, I win. 要灭我嘴,难啊!你以为我是我老爸,那么好骗吗? Anyway its long story . I don't want to continue.

Then went temple pray & come home.

口吃黄莲,有理说不清但有理走天下.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Back from project ID, CIP.The dry run was, really quite dry.Walked the whole journey. Should have wear shoes instead of slippers. Now my legs are like so blistered. -.-llll . But not really as tired la, cause is walk only >.-



After that went buffet , 不肥都变肥了, at SP, price is really reasonable . Ate alot thats all I can say, think I skipping dinner le.

是事后管管我的嘴,积点口德了.
最近造的口业实在太多了.

sadu,sadu

Saturday, July 4, 2009

At last, I manage to dig out a decent picture & photoshopped it :) It's like decades since I last edited pictures.

美的定义,见仁见智。各花入各眼,毕竟情郎眼中出西施。
Finally, I am doing something I liked blogging :)

Today marks the start of my true holiday (end on tue )

Just went swimming with chih and thitipat, after that super wasted paper. Went home collect clothes then went to JE swimming complex. First time there (to swim)hahah. Quite fun, the waves & artifical rain I like :). 1st time go down that turning thing also.Swam or rather played for quite long then went home le.

Slacked for whole day........
I need a rest. I wanna take a nice display pic of myself, cause I have none that's presentable. I felt like shopping. I am feeling much better than this time last week. I hope to enjoy this last stretch of short break, before my engine goes running all the way till 30th november 2009. I hope I dont get crazy. I wanna buy Anthony Horowitz -Necropolis on wednesday.I am craving for Secret recipe again-.-llll.I want to get this two years over & done with & get into the course I want. Thats all :)

梦想与现实,我真的只能二者选一吗?
梦想与幻想,我是否在平空乱想呢?
梦想与理想,我最终会是怎样?

难道真是不在呼天长地久,只在呼曾经拥有吗?

Friday, July 3, 2009

1st week of school

Erm ok lets complain, reflect & maybe predict about the exams that had been tied down to since monday.

Biology
Took me days to memorise. I won't really say that I didn't put in effort, but neither was it a good attempt. More work is definately required. I hope that I will pass thats all. Didn't finish it. Realise that I have tendency to get too stressed out during exams especiaally the last 15 mintues to that extend that at first glance I know what was cellulose, after attempting the 1st 2 parts of the question, I forget what it was -.-llll. I ended up craping my way through. & As usual there are stuff that I am unsure of, & I would leave blanks thinking that will come back, but thaat chance never come! & it always turn out that what I suspect is right is right. Anyway, this time round is quite bad la, is seriously a memory cum tricky paper.

Chemistry
Forget bring theremometer, ended up running down & up the slope-.-llll so what la....... Make me so tensed then start the paper, dun even know what I was doing in the first 10 minutes la!Paper one is horrible. As usual advices falls on deaf ears.I didnt bother about TYS & I pay a heavy price. I think i flung paper 1 completely, I did count myself lucky if I were to pass p.1. P.2 is like what jeremy say 还好而已. Not too good neither is it too bad.Another PAPER THAT i HOPE i PASS.

Chinese
L.C aya, everyone agrees that it is doable one. P.2. I wondered if gary was right 我离题了!Just hope that I didnt. Compre was freak la! Summary & the describe feeling question is sure doom one,I dont even know what the heck to write , then the stupid MCQ all so same one. I think I should not pin too much hope on it.

Maths today
I felt super wasted.If I were to know that such a paer were to come out I did sacrifice my bio time for maths >.<...... Wasted, there goes my A. 2.5 question undone. Marvellous, first time I did such stupid thing in an exam.(on second thoughts other than physics paper maybe ya first time ba) Question one sort of the stunned me, then haizzzzz... shant elaborate on it. Just simply pathetic and wasted........ & I am so dumbed to bring HP into exam hall & forget to bring back my pencil case after exam. so dumb la.今天好像魂魄被钩了似的,魂不受社的...........

Overall, I need to improve on my time management, calm myself down, especially during last 15 mintues I tend to get too anxious & never say I will come back again, cause I always don't have that chance to.& lastly like what mdm song says I need to find a way to make sure that I don't forget things under pressurised environment!

Hoping for the best and praying for the worst
希望雨以过天以晴, 而不是暴风雨前平静的过度期.
愿得智慧真明了