Actually, only intended to check the portal & shut down the laptop de. But well, facebook & blogger seems too attractive.........

Mum & Dad's back from KL, unfortunately with no clothes at all ( I call it pathetic shopping hahah), instead they were back with a huge box of chocolates ( I meant those brown cardborad boxes not those small small boxes inside) 370 ringgit worth of coca...... hahah its enough to suffice me till end of year le. Apparently, I think is because I told them dark chocolates ( those extremely bitter oness) are good for anxiety, cause there's this dunno wad natural depressants inside, so i think thats wad made them brought 5 boxes of it...... lol & lots of rasins coated with coco.... & 3 boxes of Bei teh soh , 2 boxes of tau sar piah.... thats all. They might just go cameron highlans again this year end, for another event, but I doubt they will. lol

thats bout it, must really start my engine le ..................

Found this quote somewhere, "Humans are like plants. When we are cut, the threat is felt, one will propagate for survival & existence". find it extremely meaningful & afterall this is wad I have been sensing from some people.

k, I have been slacking for the past few days doing I also dunno wad. other than friday.

After bio paper 1, I rushed off to see psych at NUH. Heng, I reach there on time, cause the doctor dunno I was coming(due to the delay by the nurses in sending my file into him) & went off for meeting ( I saw him walking away with my eyes while I was waiting). When the nurses finally realise he was offed, they rushed to confim if I was late & called him back haha.....

NVM that, cause he gt a meeting to attend to & he was already late also lol. He wrote my memo for MINDEF & it is like so so freaking short lol.( really 2 short sentences only!!!) saying I was under his care for my condition & wad medication I was on. hahah, he say if it is not enough I'll have to pay $80 bucks for a medical report which will take him a month to prepare. lols

anyway, medication dosage increased to 1, 10 mg pill / day le :( & according to the psych, my tiredness & wanting to sleep is due to exams haizzzzz, why cant I just be normal ???

After that met mum at JE MRT & went Singapore mint to get my silver pendant :) mum ended up getting another orchid coin, just as I have expected, she seems to have an interest in metals with flora designs..... anyway the pendant was wow :) It's my first PAMP bar ( smth like a gold bar, but is only 1/25 OZ= 6.662g) Lovely, cause they seldom make such small cute little silver bars in swiss :) & more importantly it is sealed in those formal percious metals plastic with assy office seal & certificate number. making me 不舍得open it........ hahah

k, thats about it, mum & dad would be back from KL tonite, they have been away since friday nite to tend to an event cum tour at KL. lol hope she gets me my secret recipe brownies lol

need to really start muging like mad le. cause I have slcked too much.

1 month of studies & delayed gratification
100 times of fullfilled wants & no regrets

haizzz..... I wasted math, totally.... there's so much if only that I wan to say, if only I this & that. The conclusion is both papers are not diffcult, just that my mind was bit too anxious & haizzzz. nvm, full of regrets for paper 2. 30 marks is gone ( completely)......

Fight till the end

k, 1 week of exams & I am like totally drained. Feeling quite tensed, my back all acheing & bit breathless now. Thanks to CSE & Math clashing on the same day, I wonder how am I going to survive GP's marriage with BIO...... , BIO & CHEM 通婚...... X= I think, I will ask for letter to do exams in private just in case, cause I can feel that, my brain& shoulders was v v v tensened today. & I can't even sleep last nite, ( though physically I was, my eyes was closed, but my brain wasn't, I am v sure)

Math, like bio & chem was a disaster, I think I flung bio, completely. I dont know why I so "Kei kiang" to choose question 9. & 2.5 full questions emptied. haha I am dead..... Math, I felt abit wasted, like chemistry, I didnt push myself hard enough. Not that I can't do la, just I was too calm....... I tell myself just try this time, so I really didnt piah....... But, after prelims, I must wake up. There's a dream, I don't wan a pipe dream. X=

But, good thing is, I'll be getting my silver pendant next friday le :) I have longed for it like aeons of decades le :)

一路上
有苦有乐,
雨后彩虹,
海阔天空.

k, I am here to waste time again. But I am feeling ok lah :)

I just woke up form my 4 hour nap, caused I simply didnt sleep last nite ( not that I didnt sleep, its just I dont feel that I was sleeping, cause I slept with tonnes of dreams, making me felt so yuckish) But its normal for me to be like that, at least my brain was working absolutely fine today. :)

GP papaer today, I don't really think I can get a B or C, I onlt hope that Gandi don't always come and irritate me lol & give me my D I am happy le :) There's lots of if only I want to say, if only I got more time for my AQ. If only, I saw my MEDIA question early enough and didnt freaking wasted 10 mintues on that idiotic Singapore Based question that I obviously know wasnt my cup of tea...... lol, but I was glad that at least I saw media & not did Singapore, cause singapore question yucks ttm.

But today's paper proved something, even for GP, practise makes perfect.


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由来了...................
Haizzzz..... laxapro makes me feel not bad lah. But, I suddenly felt so scared last nite & now X= So I am here....... wasting time :(