Today was really really enjoyable. Lunch at Pizza Hut. Was really enjoyable, chit chatting, eating etc.... gossips.

If only everyday was like that.,,, life wont be so tough & it would had been more manageable.

Phew..................... It's like 1 week, or rather 4 days & it's finally over.

CSE was a waste. I actually guessed that it would be that essay. But I didnt manage to have time. Or maybe I was too stuborn & thought, I could come up with an inpromtu essay on the spot.

Chem was abit wasted, or maybe I was simply unprepared. But I felt that I was rather panicky, fluttered & unfocused. Jumping here & there.

Math, I was like "WOW" PJC actually can set such questions. Bit taken aback. Usually thought that they set manageable stuffs. But guessed I was wrong. Last 4 question & the tiger question killed me, 43 marks at risk. haizzzz there goes my apple. I can pass already very good le.

Bio, er, if only I wasnt so suay & had fever last nite, I might had bloomed....

jaded.........haizzz, life sux.

Chemistry today. Felt totally cheated. Wonder if I got U for it. If I do, it would be the first in my life. Will I cry if I get U? I wonder also. lols.

Tmr is math, alot to memorize.............. I don't want to be in that awkard situation hearing - "U R NOT DOING JUSTICE TO YOURSELF". his kind of stuffs, once is enough.... I almost teared back then hahah.

Kept wondering if I get DES & UU how? touchwood.

Shouldnt be here at this moment. Should be mugging, like what everyone else is doing.

I can sense that I am drifting apart from the class. That's something for sure& I have predicted. I tried to accustomise myself into the envirnoment I chose(or could I say I forced myself to be in) to be in. But I seems to fail.

Science center today was, not exactly fun, neither was it boring. PCR was new, electrophoresis was er old. lols.

Juggling between work & play, probably is way beyound my ability. I tried to study during this pseudo march holiday. I felt that I failed. Quite alot of things were undone. Math for instance, vectors & APGP. Chemistry, organic chemistry is enough to kill me. Biology like CSE, don't even mention it.

1 week & I would most likey turn myself to be at risk( & I dare say, for the first time in my life). & the consequence, would my already low morale take another blow? Or rather, am I up for another blow, or another fall. Will I climb up in time?

I appear strong, cold and probably even arrogant to some. But who really knows what I am thinking. How I wished that everything was a dream & I could just pass-on beyound this miserable stage of "life".

Alrights..... life still goes on.......... brush, bath & mug

Probably I should just take this common test as a stepping stone but can I really percieve it this way?

About to start APGP, or rather I started, but just after 1 question, I stopped, cause I can't stand it. Arithmetic & Geometric proggression- is like an comprehension passage filled with numbers that replaced the bombarstic words.

It's quite a joke, 1 year passed & soon, I would be left with 3 terms before my final lap in this local Education System. It's pretty fast, and I am just quite annoyed, unprepared & probably lack the confidence to excel.

I do have a dream, or to be more specific, an end in mind. But the way things are turning, I really wondered how things would turn out. I tell myself, if there's a miracle for PW, I would harp on to that dream. If not, why not just let it aside. For my grades probally couldn't get me that far.

Lies, false statements, sour grapes(I am not refering to you, I am refering to cockroach) or even white lies, are everywhere. I tried to differentiate them, but they simply clump and clatter together into a lump, far beyound recognition.

I tried to slow down the pace of life, cause I don't want a stupid relapse or burn out before the main course. But, the trend surronding me, doesnt seems to allow me to do so. I will just have to work abit harder, while at the same time, choose wwho to communicate with, such that I remain humane till the end...................

Phew....... How I wish I could catch some Korean drama like now................... But probably I'll have to go back to APGP. I don't want to end up hearing - you are not doing justice to yourself, or even worst being labelled AT RISK........... lols.

May the blessings to triple merits guide me through this ordeal, and may the peace & serenity that I once own, suroound me as I try to make it to the end of this tunnel.

GP paper yeaterday, I would say that, any kids sitting for that paper would have this in mind. WHY ON EARTH WOULD I WANNA BE AN ASTRONAUT?

Just hope I could pass, deleate the flying colours, cause is not possible.

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may be...possibly your roommate, neighbor, coworker, long lost friend, or even a complete stranger, but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way.

Sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart. Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck.

Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you become. Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don’t believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you.

You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets. Most importantly!!!if you LOVE someone tell him or her, for you never know what tomorrow may have in store. And learn a lesson in life each day that you live.

THAT’S THE STORY OF LIFE

I toss a coin, with a prayer to predict what will happen. The predictions is sadly coming true.

It's like so long since I last came online. Tonnes of things happened, almost breakdown. I thought u trusted me but sadly you don't.
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Miss Aw's lesson on tuesday was, simply life changing. Every word that she sprouted during that short 1 hour of "life long lesson" really made an impact. Someone who actually phrased your thoughts out, word by word, in such a tactful manner, to make sure that the impact is made, but no harm is done. She's just too skilled for that. A totally different side from her. 7 months, that's all you have. It will determine what you are doing for the next 70 years. If you want to waste it, it's your life. The consequences - gossips and failures that you will face.

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A level Results. Today. nothing much of the special. Just that I realise one thing - confiding in someone, really really doesnt mean saying whatever you are thinking at that point. For your concern can become the other's distress. Just keep things to yourself, it doesn't kill to do so.

Isolation, is a good way to escape from interaction. For it ensures that you do not intrude other's privacy. Neither would other's be able to peek into your life.

Probably, staying in class during breaks & going to that solitude concer in the library does help.
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I do not experience real "emotional stage" . I disagree. I literately was in pieces somewhere now last year. Who knows? Answer is "no one". I appear calm and to some perhaps strong. But who can really look into what is going on in my brain, what I am thinking? No -one does.

I thought I found someone to open up that lock in my heart, that was triple or even quaternary reinenforced( thanks to that "marvellous childhood of mine"). But guessed I was wrong.

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Birthday - well wishes & wallet. Nothing much other than - appreciate what they did. If only dad was more generous, or should i say, if only those 2 pieces of papers never belonged to my family. Wishes- I didnt pray for anything on this faithful day. For it didnt turn out right(from the start of the year).

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Frenetic and indivualistic - that's how the world ought to be described. Glad that I locked this up. If not, who am I telling all these? U? Not now. I wondered, will this cast an end to the story. If it is wise, then probably .............. nvm.