I am seriously sicked now, down with horrible headache.I have totally spent the whole day sleeping, now I am still down with slight headache. I think I am seriously behind time. I have yet to start CSE study. Haizzzz how huh. I am really afraid that I wont even make it past mid year now.

GP on friday was a sheer disaster. I had chosen the dumbest & most fatal question of all. Is change nessarily for better. Haizzz nevermind. I can only hope to pass now.

& Bio & Chem I can't imagine.

We see how. I am really reconsidering my options & my cards. If I really can't cope, I will just change my paths ba.

BTW I got MINDEF's letter le. The letter that I dreaded. hiazzz......

Life's bad, k, I go sleep liaozzz

Tmr I hope to go food fair, hope that my stupid headache will subside. So that I can take photos.

自做蘖不可活

Quite irritated today. Ya, I know it was our fault that we did not inform you beforhand, but what u did is really first of its kind. Threatening- if you don't go, I will leave.

GP on friday, haizz....

There's a coin that I like, I wanna buy it !!!!hahah , but it will never be in GSS, so think my poor wallet have to take the cost hahah. But I wonder if it is worth it, consider the curent metal pricing haizzzz.

不费吹挥之力，你达成了想要的。。。。。。
得饶人处，且饶人
黑白，是非，对错，公道，自在人心

If it is as simple as a word sorry...

k, I seemed quite free now i dun really know what homework I am left with other than maths & bio & tonnes of revision.

nvm, so bored now, I dun feel like in the mood to mug.... how huh?

得与矢只是一线之差

Haizz I feeling sort of the nostalgic now very funny emotion. dunno whether to be happy a not. I am definately glad that June holidays are coming real soon, but find this holiday to be pretty werid I think.There's MYE at last day & first wed & when school starts next semester there will be MYE. It's like a thorn in my eye. But nontheless I am going to take a break this time round. Afterall quite alot of change in plan for the holidays occured.

ACID camp - cancelled due to H1N1, meaning I am free for the weekend.
Teaching- thanks to what that "professional" teacher did, it is like hanging in mid air going no where.
Malaysia- we see how I thought of going after MYE since there is a long 5 day holiday after that.
Viet meet up - jeremy , ok week 2 perhaps a wednesday! & lets go GSS together ahhah
PW- dunno yet, it's like everything is upside down.
MYE- better do well or else.......

chinese oral is like so freaking la.Dunno who on earth came up with that stupid idea of having oral in front of your classmates. So what la my hands were like shaking that day & if you guys notice, the first question was seriously badly answered!! I dun even know why content was worth 1- la . I doubt I shld be getting this mark lor.Anyway I just crapped my way through & I make it hahah.

Bio test, sheer disaster, failed nevermind. I really dont know what happened I tried my best le, maybe or I didn't. haizzz

Chem test thats on the way back. I did hope that it can be DHL- deliver halfway lost. Hope that AW dun srcutinise me can liao.

Maths is so-so , quite disappointing I would say. GP - haizz so what if.

Next week is just busy, thats all I can say.
GP MYE on fridaay haizz.
oral continuation- freaking scary
CSE test
gtg do HW le.

人不为己,真的要天铸地灭吗?
路摇知马力日旧见人心

Seriously what on earth is wrong with you ! Why are you making all those stupid careless and brainless mistakes? Why are you blacking out, as though you are a lamp destined to be controlled by a switch, or a candle's glow which is affected by the strength of the wind.Why are you not performing like what you have been doing? Seriously wake up soon, before the road ends, and the doors shut.

Take it as a stepping stone? Is it really possible? Or is it something just to comfort your disstress soul? Let it be I did rather I lost my soul now and pass on . ( I shld nt be usin this word but ya pass on, I think it is a good word)

YOU NEED TO WAKE UP & BUCK UP!!!!!!

EFFORT - perhaps I am lacking this crucial element.

愿得三宝加持

命运弄人

tiring week 8

k, I am seriously going to complain today. The tests this week are freaking unfriendly ok!!!

Let's start with Bio test.K, this time round the bio test seems more like人做的.The MCQ, I have no gaurentee on how much I will get. But something I know for sure is that open ended I am either doomed to fail, or just to pass. It is like we are short changed in terms of the time & marks allocated for open ended question.A question that deserved at least 6 marks was only given 3 mark. That's not really what I want to say, cause it is normal for teachers to do that, in order to maximise the content they are testing. But the time it is seriously short leh!Anyway I still hope that the overall won't be just a pass. I did be greedy now. Or else when can I ?

Chemistry was a sheer disater. Yes, it is undeniable that I did some last minute study like two days before hand. But seriously before I did the exam I was like, yeah I more or less know the concepts. But what happened?I recieved the paper everything was like deleated? Two whole pages was empty(pls bear in mind it is excluding that stupid bonus question, which was also left blank!)Nevermind I think I am really prepared to fail & guarentee that's what I can say. haizzz

Maths, well generally if I don't make any stupid mistakes there's nothing much to regret le. Cause, other than the d2y/dx2 I didnt manage to complete in time. The rest should be alright la. cause the rest all is I really dun no one so yeah!

K, I am too sick now. Just heard that eco got some funny activicity that I must attend to . haizzzzz. There goes my holiday.....

Let's see what is in for holiday this time round.
- china studies MYE -.-lll
- Bio tutorial
- ACID camp
-Viet gang aniversary
- School teaching :) hahhah it did be fun I hink , maybe I might end up confusing students hahah
- Eco thingy
- I wanna try visit malaysia by bus!!!!
-Study MYE

各花入各眼.
生死有命,富贵在天

k, long weekend. I literatelly spent the whole holiday resting. NOw pay the price none of my homework is done. & revision is in bits & pieces nothing solid is done -.-lll

NVM le, next week I simply need some best of luck. Bio, Chem, Maths. I dunno what to say laugh hahhah or emo cry ? haizzz. life still goes on ...

Haizz tonite need to do stupid english GP le.......


"If there was another way I would not be here today. I did be back where I belong,somewhere in my heart. I should be the first to know where the road I take & go......" adapted from lyrics beauty world
挫折感

Week 7 just flew by.....like this without me accomplishing anything other than PI, which drained me out completely by thursday. Causing me to finish my GP test in the most pathetic state ever. I was struggling to keep my eyes open. But guessed that PI has suck whatever's left in me. I did not know what I nonsence I have written. It was only when I have reached the last half another than did I realise that I have craped out everything & 90% of them was wrong!!!!NVM, what's done is done, just be prepared to f...

NAFA after GP test was disaster. Failed shutter run, broad jump, & pull up. Need to break the egg. Or else 3 mths of hell will be there for me.

Went to do GPP today. Seriously, although I like the topic I am doing but I doubt the EOM will be a good one.Cause there is basically no articles on it !!!!!Anyway I dunno how but ya we will just make it ba .......

Anyway next week is common test. Bio, maths & chem come crashing in all at one go...... Lets see how I drown, elegantly or horrifying. hahahha

k, got to go edit the GPP le

佛历2553年
愿,佛光普照,佛日增辉
离苦得乐,步步高升

得饶人处怯饶人

宰相肚里能乘船
饮水思源
愿得三宝加持,愿离苦得乐

"Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned. "

"No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path."

Eternal Shakyamuni Buddha

Today PE was like first time so slck, playing hunter & polar bear with christine, jasper, julian, gabriel, ee hong, hui jie. It was like so slow. But I get a conclusion I am seriously a poor liar! Anyway I will brush up on that.

PW- hahah Hi Mr Ching, if you really see this then I can say 2 things. Congrats you found it hahhah( actually its quite easy cause before that I challenged Julian & he actually found it via my friends link, so let me guess, u get here by my friends link or by 09S02 class blog link？) & ya u think I scolded u thats all. & sorry for retorting you today. No hard feelings.( I hope ) By the way must tag ok, u say will tag one huh hahhah !!But dun spam my tag box hahahh

Anyway, it is undeniable that you are more than suitable as a PW teacher. hahahh.

人算不如天算
直至死地而又后生，真的吗？还是还魂乏术了？

Went to MINDS today for ACID camp 09 orientation, not really a waste of time. I learnt something.- Don't grumble so much, yes you are stress but compare yourself to others maybe you did count yourself lucky le. Although they may be slower, they really led a life. A carefree one. Yes they can be quite diffcult to deal with at times, I don't deny that, but they are simply in their world, away from this cruel factual place we are in.

Heaven's fair afterall, you are born in a safe comfort place, thus you have to pay a price for it. The stress & the high standard of living.

But after todays sort of orientation, I find that perhaps its right for me to sign up for the camp :) The volunteers (from NUS & NTU) are really helpful. & thanks to help from Ying Qin & gang , if not I would have screwed today.

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Anyway I really want my holidays. I need a break! Ronald's right , quick raise the flu alert to red, & I can be at home. I did like to be a hermit crab for once, have a shell to shield myself from this utterly fast paced , cruelly tunned society I am in!

k, need to go rush PI le, tmr will be another day out. But I am glad, tomorrow's trip is worth making.

"If there's a chance, all I want is the meaning to my whole life everyday." Beauty World - Suddenly

望尘莫及,迷失的高羊.

Eco board

Bio experiment

MPR5 if I am not wrong, first time inside, pretty big thats all i can say

Hazel sleeping during PW last week hahah

Bio prac this week

Bio tutorial

Eco bazzar hahhah selling orchids.

Done, bascially other than the cantoment trip not up this was what I had been doing.

ok! It is offically stupid to feel stress now, especially when it is labour day holiday & I am like packed with homework??? I actually wanted to go make new spects one but by the looks of it haizzz.& tmr till gt dunno what camp training to attend to, luckily I only signed up for one day only or else I can really forgo about making a one day trip cross the boarder to get some cheap secret recipe. hehheh Next week's vesak, & mother's day will be spent on mugging for everyone, thats what I predicted. Cause based on latest news, all three H2 subjects that S02 has undertake is going to hold their deparmental test(sounds so classy isn't it the same as common tests?) on the same week. So bascially maths, chemistry and biology is going to rush in at one go like tusnami.

Actually Ronald I dont mind them having the alert raised to red now, school will close & stuff. but yeah may be you r right, test will still be here they wont go.........

we'll see how later........

无奈