k, its been along long time since I wrote here...................

I am like getting better yes :) Finally, anti depressants are working. But I am getting bit sleepless, my sleep is not sleep, I have sleeps full of dreams, that I almost got sleeping pills...... But I was told to consume the Almaprozam that I was given to make me sleep...........

Haven been studying much recently. X.X Seen people mugging day and nite for the As..... Join the league, on the stage, thats what many around me wanted to. Aspirations, thats what make us humans.....

Insastible needs & wants, I just started bio revision................. wan le......... GP undone at all......... haizzz....... should be mugging le. 8 more days the race will start & it will end in about 40 days.....

My journey is coming to an end, this chapter is closing & I am definately going to cut some people away from my contact list.

I know u too much that I simply hated the sight of you now......... Get lost :)

物竟天择,
势者生存,
败者生存.

闭月羞花，沉鱼落雁

This was what 09s02 wrote for Mrs Lee. Meaningful indeed. Its fast, just a blink of eye & here I am left with 20 days & everything will come to an end. I am blessed enough to be in 02, not 01 ( I would say yuck, if i were there today haha), or in 04 ( I would eeeeeee, cause I don't really clique with the ppl there lol).

Ee hong, Hui jie, Julian, Jasper, ( I doubt you guys will see this but still), heart felt gradtitue, thanks for being there & always being cheerful & bright :) You guys make up my day, especially in my slight improved condition.

光阴似箭， 珍惜当下，展望未来

Was rather pleased last nite, caused I recieved MINDEF letter le. Its full of excuses(haha), finally something off my mind........... At least I can focus on recovery for the next 2 yrs.

I should be mugging now, I know. It's a pretty bad thing this friendships have to end this way, but I no longer cares. People keep saying that, its not the grades that judges you, but thats wad I was feeling. Everyone is mugging le. By now, I have made it clear to all teachers that I had GAD, cause I know I need help with it, if not I also dunno wad to do during exams, I really can't finish most of the paper & the last 15 mintues of every paper makes me feel like shit.....

Still wondetring if I would be in school next friday, I doubt I will. If I had a chance to re live this two years, I swear, I wouldnt have went swimming on that faithful day & I could then rewrite my 2 years, probably I would have felt better.

60 days, & off I go, I would be in Vietnam :) finally a dream come true. But now, my A levels, are more important, to prove it to myself & prove it to others, that I have made it. & to make these tormanting sufferings worthwhile.

I just hope that, I wont be crying like wad I did when I got back my O levels, it was a nightmare that I hope I never experience again. For if not, I doubt I would have the courage to face anything else.................