Its quite crazy of me to be here right now at 11.30+++ but ya. As usual homework not done. still gt enzymes untouched. I just wanna go sleep le so tiring. The weather today was freaking hot, making me felt so lathargic & restless. Ended up napping for 2 hours after reaching home. Yeah ! will be meeting jeremy tmr I am so glad that we will be meeting tmr !!!!. He seems quite stressed out. Anyway proteins is driving me crazy!!!!! I dont even understand a sing;e thing although Mr wong had completed the tutorials !!!!!

Enough for today.Tmr still got dreadful PE. haizz life's bad.

If I am here then I suppose every road should be wrong........

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K, I am very much behind time now, most probably there would either be people who had finished enzyme tutorial & started bio revision & stuff or at least completed their HW lists but I think I will have a long way to go for tonite..... nvm liao la, I have enough le......

I dun really feel like going to school sometimes.It doesnt really seems to be a friendly college although undeniably the teachers are trying to slow down to let us catch up but I am just not having a reason for what I am doing now. I have a dream as a motivation. Is it funny ? But I thought I am not desperate enough perhaps I should just buck up, chat less, blog less, sleep less & I dont really know what to do.........

Last week had been fun but tiring.Eco week, sold 13 pots of orchids, bought mushrooms, went for a seriously meaningful talk & yeah it was first time I find such talks useful& I realise that stupid eco week should have been last week instead then my PI would have been better.Went for NE research, nvm I thought it seems to be more like a photo trip, ate & went home.

I need to piroritise my time, differentiate needs from wants, dos & don't before I see all the carrots flying in instead of the apples I want.

Last week GP test was I dont know what to say,I think I have craped myself throgh, I doubt it will be graded pass. Chinese test was sheer disaster what a bad start. A pass would be something lucky, if not that will be the first chinese test I failed since dunno when... if it is really 好的开始就是成功的一半, I did foresee nothing more than B which is something I dont want!!!!!!

As for PI hahhah, I dont know I am loosing the faith I used to have....... Things doesnt seems to go the way I have wanted.I doubt .....

I find last week quite fruitful but I am still feeling quite vain & down dunno why.Anyway I hope they don't swap wednesday's timetable with friday's.

Pictures we see how next friday

路是人走出来的

Dunno why I am feeling quite fed up in school nowadays.Piles of work just rush in & I am really not in any mood to complete them. Can anyone like pls tell me what on earth should I do to get back that mugging mood ???Anyway this week is fun have quite alot of first time experience.

1st time saw a road accident, a taxi hit a motorcycle & the motorcyclist actually fell down.......
1st time enter the staff room, it is big cramp & messy!!!
1st time walk through the general office theres two huge white boards!!!
1st time speaking to people from Nparks.
1st time selling things in pj -.-lll
1st time doing a GP essay !!! I think I screwed the thing

k, nvm tmr got chinese CA & maths quiz need to go study liao...........

願得智慧真明了

Feeling quite wrong nowadays. I just do not feel right.There's simply too much homework that I have started to be numbed by them . Their ever presence seems to no longer hold much impact on me anymore.I am not functioning !!!!! & there's still tests thats coming like tusnami.........

I don't know if I have studied enough but based on the analysis reports I dont seems to have done enough theres always rooms for improvemnent for sure. But where's the keys to these rooms???

PW & Bio is really driving the nerves out of me....... the apple on the chinese tree no longer seems within reach,neither is it lucrative as the past anymore........ the paper that meant to be general seems too unfriendly.......... the formulae of chemistry of successs is lost!!!!!

I am trying to ignore what I see & heard but sometimes sensitive words & phrases just drops into your ears without you knowing it. I did like to be less sensitive but how?

I need a break soon........ a long one before I get my chance to visit a counsellor or even a mental institute...

alrights no point emoing anymore get back to earth & start work before trouble befalls.

一着不慎,满盘皆输
休息是为了走更长的路,但似乎这一路并非如此.
愿得一切真明了.

PSB academy didnt manage to take the front view, which is much nicer.

the big tables inside the classrooms used for the HSK exam

Chinese on friday, literally everyone is asleep hahahh.

Busy week, ahead. Chinese, GP, china studies & maths test ..........

HSK today was ok la compared o the mock paper, but I doubt I can get grade 8. There's simply too much chinese words which I dun know how to write & the comprehension , why they like to ask, what is the suitable title or moral of the story? I hate this kind of questions!

Homework, I dun seems to be liking them... I am like trying to run away from it. Dunno why.

逃避

往日所造诸罪过,皆由无始贪与痴

This whole growing up process is really tiring me, draining me out. Life is simply a daily routine route to school for lectures, tutorals , recess, lunch which is usually spent on eating, home I go. mundane & banal- I suppose this should be how I describe my life. Actually I dont really mind leading a life of solitaire now, at least stress can be more manageable than now.

Anyway bio test is sheer failure. But as what Nicholas had said- As a disciple of Mr sham, I should have pass. Ya I managed to just pass, exceed sub-pass thanks to the two MCQs which I literally gambled with. But so what? Am I there to just scrape a pass? Or should I be obtaining something better? This test only showed 2 things- 1st I am a failure at time management, be it during exams or exam preparations. 2nd I am not doing enough, I need to buck up or else I can count my time to doomsday.

Somehow Gabriel Wong's words brings me back to sec 3, the first physics test, everyone or rather alot failed but some pass with flying colours like cai ling hahhah. He actually said the same stuffs as what Queck said- this is the worst results I have ever seen for the first test, just that he placed it across unitentionally. (* Initially he actually wanted to encourage us but somehow I think it was really too bad that he had to spur us by another method.)

But the side effects of the bio test is really taking effect now. People are bucking up. I can sense that, as usual the sensitive me. I better pick up the pace before I get threatened.

HSK on saturday, I hoped that bio dun repeat itself.
PW - I am really feeeling kinda hopeless. Persistence thats what I need or else I did collapse halfway.
PE- I am running , but other components still dun fall in place. I dun really want to waste 3 months in stupid a... .
CL-Erm, ok la nthing much but seriously my chinese standards are not really comparable to those days anymore. Even cooking up a simple paragraph of 50words seems tedious enough to wipe off 30 mintues.
GP- I am really glad that suzanah was aware of the sleeepy state we were in today.
Maths & Chem - speechless I need practise before I see history repeating itself.

Next week eco week, so ma fan......

Enough of complains liaozz, need to go rush homework le. I spent my evening sleeping now pay the price......

既然选择上了这艘船,只好划下去.
希望真的是船到桥头自然直.
复杂

haizz finally my idea is right. Dunno why I so happy. But I am just too happy. Though the idea is a little dumb la but at least it is accepted le!!! I am so glad . Anyway I need to go do liao.

BTW, loo is like telling me this- can u go & get a life? dun keep living in the past.

希望
雨后的彩虹， 一线曙光

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trying to get things done but not really in the mood .............

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hahhahhhah just too bored

Sakae after Os

Viet trip, I seriously missed it !!!

4E3 - an insteresting class that contributes to the mark in me. Mrs Ooi thanks for the two years :)

Mun Kit remember these 999 stars ??

The gang I used to hang out with, but everyone's on different track now :)

2E5- the class that shaped me. Mrs Wong - As well as you dont panic you will be alright. :)

4E3- X country last year with that prize , lasting memories...... Mrs Lim- perhaps you are right. But still thanks :)

16 April 2009

Haizz I am arguing with my mum over health supplements now. It is plain stupid. Just becasue the company revised their way of manufacturing the product, making it more nutrious& at the same time changing it soury, then my mum is making a big fuss out of it. saying that it is not natural &........

Anyway it has really been a good friday out with dad , did shopping yeah!!! the experience was so so so good ok!! especially after a 2 months brake from such therapy.Even though I was quite sad that nothing much quite catch my eye, even the pair of shoes I was eyeing for disappeared from the display racks....

Anyway homework is still untouched.... seems that theres much to catch up. & need to be mentally prepared on monday also. Just in case I will fail my bio test....

记忆犹新

此时的我是复杂的,是疑惑的.

pathetic start , fatal ending

Chemistry lab, with ties. funny right. I was wondering why need to put on ties in lab. Then she only said can dun put on ties when everyting ended. -.-lll

PJ... Happy birthday .....

Assembly, so -.-lll....

Lousy phone, or else this pic did turn out better.

Before assmbly in LT3....

She seems to be even more stress than us. Must have drained off too much blood while marking our test papers hahah. People out there don't ever try showing it to her or else I did replace Gabriel's miserable position........(which I dun reallly wish to!!!)

Chem prac.... to get rid of water of crystallisation in the solid.....

This week is simply fatal.....

PI 1st draft gone, Bio departmental test was a sheer tragedy.....

Don't really feel good today especially after bio test. It is like when i step out of house i sensed that something's going to be wrong & ya I am right again........ Then PE is like getting more hiong.Chem test 1 was a waste, it is not as if I dont know or what, it is just that I was too careless & the timing wasn't really right(the night before was spent on stupid PI).

As for chinese, I wonder if I am going to make it. she seems to marking in a very werid manner, I dont really find my compo worth what it is allocated.

When things dun go smoothly even pictures also turn out ugly- I got my new concession card it is freaking ugly can! Why not take my IC one ? nicer right? Hui jie even say I underwent plastic surgery hahhah.

PW results is out today. Mr Ching had indeed uphold his name...... whole class of As with only 2 Bs & 1Cs. But sad that he's leaving....... ya I know, it is either I have offened him or what, but he is really a good teacher la. Responsible & fast witted though it can be a bad thing also hahhah. I did like an A but from the looks of it perhaps a ball is more feasible.......

Glad that there's a good friday tmr. At least I can have a brake. Maybe I will suggest to go shopping, (a form of therapy which I missed!!!, jeremy must make time for it during june holidays!!!) after dealing with what I am suppose to do.....

Jeremy, wen xin, pei jun can we have another vietnam trip? Ronald lets have another chinese lesson together. Nicholas I missed recess & chinese pojects. Shi Min miss your company in class. Mun Kit why can't u be here ? Mrs lim lets have another maths lesson, I dun mind u aciding me. Mrs Ooi I repeat again.... Mdm teoh note :) 4E3 I miss the laughters & jokes clive, LiLi, Ming sheng, jaslyn & moree , 2E5 the innocent times, the PBL jia hao, yi han, chun hui, choon yan, martiani, anthea & more.....I need someone to confide......someone to relate, someone to clinqe.....

Sometimes I just wonder why had I or rather why was I so stupid to go against my own promise, when it is clear that the signage was pointing to the other path. Why am I so stuborn at decision makings? Perhaps this is life- an unfair game, with underlying conditions. Either you make it or brake it.

Can we survive it out there, can we make it some how? These memories dun seems to be fading....

今天不知明天事， 但似乎明天非明日。

只愿这是一场梦， 梦醒后会称心如意。

Ok, just realise that Julian found my blog. Anyway congrats Amanda didnt find it, u did hahhah.
& Ronald dun be too sad about it la.

Wen Xin

Pei Jun the bday girl

recess only what look so stress for what?

Ronald this is the extend my PW teacher goes.

Bio prac... food test... something I still have yet to master to date.

k, seriously I dont really know what on earth I have gotten myself into. With tonnes of homework stacking up on my table wawiting foe me to clear & stupid bio test next week.

PW is simply a something horrible. I doubt my draft 1 would be good. 满江红thats what I expect. Crosses here & there perhaps redo on it. I doubt I will see" see me " cause I thought he already had enough seeing me le.

Anyway I think I am drawing too much attention during PE le Need to keep a low profile next time..........

忙里偷闲

Feeling pretty confused now. I keep getting stuck while writting the PI.I have been infront of this comp since 10.am till now only 1/4 , 0.25 of it is done -.-lll. I have been reading articles after articles online. Making me more & more confused.........Maybe I should have stayed back on friday to ask Mr Ching about it...... Anyway I doubt I am going to complete it by today, we will see how.

另一场战争以开始， 鹿死谁手拭目以待。。。。。。

Have yet to research for bio & stuff can imagine teachers nagging le.....

Oya btw, ronald I dun see why AAC is this month leh. There is nothing important or what also, then they have AAC alittle werid leh

Bio lesson - carbohydrates, I was playing with those little lego thingy hahhah

see this tube of foam. It was a result of some sugar solution, HCl & NaOH. I was almost shocked when I saw the efferverscence. BTW it overflew & was terribly disgusting.

Part of the horrible practical thursday. I was doing food test.

I like this pic take alook..... u find many people in it.

Poor Gabriel, look so innocent & shock. Yet u did not even notic me taking u hahhah

Stupid chemistry prac., waste so much of my time. I repeated 5 times for this titration, due to inconsistent results. The colour cahnge is like so diffcult to see. NVM. People say I crazy take this photo. hahahha

HSK photo, jeremy & his lol character.

Hui Jie - lol. 1st class birthday celebration

That's about it I need to research for my PW le, or else see me in coffin next week. Still dun really know how to link my lesson to another topic so stresss haizzzz

仁

Term 2 week 1

Theres actually quite alot I would like to say but........NVM we will see how.

First, Amanda, maybe by chance you will see this but congrats if u see this cause u find my blog... But I did rather you dont figure out the way to get here hahhah (bad right, but I did rather keep it this way)
Why ?
cause I dont really want S02 to know what the real me is like. Perhaps, most of you, or maybe everyone sees me this way- Kia- su , hardworking (a nicer way to say kia su), mugger( j..... might feel this way), smart(I dont really think so).

Anyway, hope that amanda dont read all this, I would rather let people from 6k, 2E5 & 4E3 read.

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Collected SGC today, it is freaking nice can ! & miss tan actually exaggerated too much but hahhah nvm. I shan't talked too much abt the cert.

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PW is horrible can. To date I am still quite uncertain about my linking part...... & I am supposed to hand in my first draft on on 2nd April !!!!& Mr ..... actually threatened me to get him others school notes -.-llll, nvm as usual I get some funny faces from him........

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Homework is like tusnami. There's a huge pile on my table, anyone too bored ? Come to me I can provide u with free leisure activities to keep u occupied for 2 weeks.
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& funny enough I seems to be enjoying & participating in PE, although it is more strenuenous as compared to those days.
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09S02
After a term & 1 week
Fun, hardworking, picky, erm ya daring.
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maths departmental done, bio class done left with chem & bio departmental test haizzz life's bad.
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Lastly I dont seems to trust alot of people nowadays. Perhaps I am starting to have those siege mentality, which can be rather bad if I don't take it in my stride.& I seems to getting what they can "emo" dunno why. All of a sudden I can get very down , depressed and panicky. I doubt I will get to meet people that hits off with me now. I missed those times :)


该来的,总该来.该去的,总该去.

Should be doing PW now but, aya.....

k, I seems to be in comfort zone now not really been productive for yesterday & today.Should buck up le before people catch up & I lag behind......

nvm........ gtg le...... PWWWWWW Mr Ching if you see this ,I doubt u will but just in case, I did not really hold any grudge against you...... so dun like say until I dislike your lessons can ??

误会

ok. its like last few moments to school.Here I am still struggling to finish those bits & pieces of uncompleted assignments.......

Lets see what I am still left with.

1 bio newspaper article
3 chapters of bio undone
All the common tests not revised
Chinese compo test on monday (TMR) not prepared

Maybe I should have gone for the gathering, instead of finishing my homework now -.-

Anyway, I just hope that PW, won't be that user unfriendly......
& HSK can be slower.......

gtg....

一切会过去

YMCA pictures. Chih Kiat-"Unglam" right. hahhah nvm, these are called natural!!! :)

NVM about YMCA. I am currently preparing for stupid chinese compo test on monday. It is dumb ok!!! After like 4 years of freedom from narrative essays, here I am back to square 1, once again being forced to write mushy mushy narrative essays in chinese.

Although I have a choice between 2 topics either 珍重再见 or 出国深造, I still find it quite stupid. I am supposed to put myself in a scenario whereby I am either biding goodbye to friends or family, describe scenes of crying, sad ........Why can't we just go back to those good old times, whereby I can do something I am more familiar & supposedly better at ???

I am not good at coming up with romantic sentences that describes the ambience of the environment, & I sort of the hate to describe environment!!!!!So no choice I am listening to those sad sad chinese songs to make me feel sad. -.- later turn ... again haizzz....

BTW, SGC is out le!!! It is freaking nice de lor!!!! But those Bs & Cs have already spoilt mine.

nvm, I will still go retrieve it, on 9 April(day before good friday) anyone free to tag along ???

船到桥头自然直

Haizzzz, I seems to be getting weaker day by day......

Dunno why nowadays I get emo quite easily. Perhaps I am losing faith in myself. Perhaps this is the reason why I quarrel so much. Perhaps it is why I want to keep this platform away form 02.I am really thinking twice about where I am now. I should have adhered to what you said.

The tunnel seems to be never ending. Advice never seems to land on the right ear.I should have remained calm.

"As well as you remain calm, you are alright."I should recalled that earlier.

万千世界, 有得必有矢.无智以无得,以无所得固.
但如今,可能智慧花开是上册